November 7, 2010
One of the services that everyone seems to enjoy is one we present a couple of times a year. We ask for two volunteer participants who are willing to share their own spiritual journey with the Fellowship. This morning Rich Sider and Laura Dent each shared their own spiritual journey.
Rich Sider
When Judith asked me to participate in this service, my first thought was, I haven’t had much of a spiritual journey. A theological journey, yes, but a spiritual journey? I wish I could say I’ve traveled further.
I’ll come back to my spiritual journey, or lack thereof, in a moment, but let me tell you a little about my theological journey first.
I was born in Zimbabwe, then Southern Rhodesia, to Brethren in Christ missionary parents. The BIC denomination is not the same as the Church of the Brethren. It is one of the Anabaptist related groups, though, with a Wesleyan holiness flavor. In short, my parents were devout evangelical pacifist fundamentalists in the separatist mold of conservative Mennonites. The world was basically evil and in need of salvation and the only important thing in life was to be “right with the Lord.â€
Although I never accepted the separatist aspects of my parents faith, I tried to make the evangelical framework work up through college. As some of you who share a similar background may have also experienced, it involved numerous attempts over the years to confess my sins and renew my faith in and commitment to the tenets of evangelical Christian faith. The problem for me was that it never worked. I could never experience the joy and freedom from my evil ways that a “personal relationship with Jesus Christ†was supposed to produce.
After college and marriage, Martha and I went off to southern Africa with the Mennonite Central Committee, the international service organization of the Mennonite Church. Even though we weren’t into the missionary thing, the concept of responsibility to be of service had taken hold, and has affected my whole working career, all of which I have spent working for non-profits.
So, we entered the second phase of our theological journey – the liberal Mennonite pacifist phase. I think I can use the pronoun “we†safely because Martha and I have been fortunate in that regard – our theological pilgrimages have coincided pretty well. In this theological environment, service to others was the key to meaning and peace. Unfortunately, while I believe deeply in the importance of service to others, I didn’t find the meaning and peace I was seeking in that path either.
During the 18 years I worked for MCC, including 4 in Guatemala in the early 1980s during the height of the civil war there, Martha and I came to reject the Christian faith claim to be the only truth.  We came to see we were certainly no better or more connected to the transcendent than the many who by happenstance had been born into a different religious framework and culture. To think they were somehow condemned because of this just became too inconceivable to consider anymore. And although many in the liberal Mennonite community share this view but have remained within it, we became increasingly uncomfortable with what is essentially a “don’t ask, don’t tell†approach to theology. People who believe differently than Christian orthodoxy just don’t talk about what they believe. We also became increasingly uncomfortable with the words spoken and sung in worship – words emphasizing dualism between the saved and unsaved, good and evil, material and spiritual, and anthropomorphizing the mystery many call God. [Read more…]